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I’ve been going through a lot of really intense shit in my life right now, and I think it’s finally time to tell someone about it.

My mom had a complete mental breakdown; seeing delusions, extreme paranoia, hearing voices, and even thoughts of suicide. For the past month, she has been complaining nonstop about people picking on her and doing/saying weird things to her at her job, and it’s all been in her head. Now, she’s at the point where my sisters have to watch her at all times and she’s always drugged up. Who knows if she’ll ever be able to go back to work. I’ve always known that there was something wrong in her head, but no one ever believed me until now that they’re seeing it for themselves. 

I’ve been left to fend for myself, since there is no one to support me anymore. My sisters have been telling me it’s a good idea to get a job, but my mom still thinks I shouldn’t, yet she LOVES to remind me of how much of a burden it is for them to pay for everything for me. Every time I talk to her on the phone, all she does is pick me apart. She’s constantly reminding me of all the bad grades I’ve got since I’ve been here and how “irresponsible” it is that I’m always broke. It’s always about all the negative things that I’ve done, and NEVER about what I’ve accomplished. You can’t expect someone to do their best when they’re constantly being broken down.

I have no idea what’s going to happen in the next couple of months, but I’m not expecting it to go well.